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I have been taking CBD, in oil or capsule form, for a while. Eventually, I ran out and just haven’t bought any. When I saw a free trial and all I had to do was provide a review after, I jumped on it! I picked the highest dose possible since we are familiar with CBD and I anxiously waited for it.

My husband and I had just started lifting again for a week and we were sore! When it came, we were super excited to try this new company out.

Packaging: I liked the packaging, especially since it comes with a list of where the batch was tested.  It made me feel more confident taking this product. There was also a brochure with all the CTFO Products.

Dosage: 10-20 drops 2 times a day. I chose to take one dose in the morning once a day. I am getting older and I wake up sometimes with some aches and pains. I figured that this would help kind of take the morning edge off and prepare me for my day.

My husband started with 20 drops, sometimes twice a day. He’s bigger and taller than me, so we figured he’d need more. He also suffers from aches and pains when he wakes up in the morning and was rear-ended on the highway years ago.Pain Relief Product Package - $20 Savings!

First Taste: It was… interesting. It’s not something that I would want to taste all the time. It’s like a light minty oil. You’re supposed to put the drops under your tongue and let them adsorb for a little bit. I like oil on bread but not under my tongue by itself. It wasn’t bad or anything, but my husband and I agreed it was a new sensation.MemoryWorks® <br> Leadership Pack <br> Preferred <br> 16 Box Order

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My husband felt alright, but maybe he just had too much going on at the same time. It didn’t hurt anything, but it didn’t help as much as he wanted. He also didn’t stay on the oil as long as I did because he got sick (completely unrelated).Beauty Product Package - $25 Savings!

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I will try the capsules next time and maybe something from their skin care line.

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Mozart the Amazing Hiccup Puller – Son’s bedtime story

Once upon a time there was a boy. The boy had large round glasses and light brown curly hair, all the way down to his shoulders. The boy’s name was Mozart and he was a magician! There was a talent show at school and Mozart was set to perform his very first show.
Mozart was so excited and he practiced his tricks over and over and over again. Finally, it was the day of the show and he got ready to get on stage. He checked to make sure everything was perfect. His cape was pressed, his hat was tall and his magic wand was shined. Mozart stepped on Stage and everyone cheered.
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“Hello Everybody!!! ” Mozart screamed. “My name is Mozart and today I am putting on a magic show!” The crowed cheered. “My first act is Juggling… whoops!” Mozart started to juggle and lost track of the balls and they all landed on the floor. The crowed laughed. Mozart decided it was best to keep going. “My second act will be to make Harold the bear disappear!” Mozart said. The crowed cheered.
“First we put Harold in the box, and then we wave the wand and say the magic words… SHALAKAFLIMLAMDOO! And now we see that Harold has disappeared!”
Mozart open the box and smiled to the crowed who just laughed and laughed at him. Mozart didn’t need to look over to know that Harold was still sitting in the box. Mozart started to turn bright red with embarrassment. He wasn’t sure if he should keep going or not because nothing was working out right and every one was laughing at him.
Then he heard a hiccup. First it was tiny, but hen he heard another one, and another one, and another one! The hiccups got louder and louder. Mozart had an idea.
“For my final trick” Mozart Said, “I will make your hiccups disappear! Who is hiccuping? Can you please come up here?”
After some shuffling in the audience a little girl named Mary appeared on Stage. Mary was in 3rd grade and had long pigtails in her hair and freckles on her nose and cheeks. Mary was nervous to be on stage but Mozart promised her he would make her hiccups disappear.
“Mary, please take a deep, deep breath and hold it. Then when I say okay open your mouth and exhale till I say stop.” Mary took the deepest breath ever and held it as she watch Mozart.
Mozart waved his wand once, twice and then nodded at her to open her mouth. Mozart pinched the air in front of Mary’s mouth and told her to exhale. As she exhaled Mozart pulled and pulled and pulled and finally, when Mary felt like she had no more breath to exhale, “Stop!” Mozart Screamed.
Mozart took her hiccups and threw them in his hat. Then Mozart placed the hat back on top of his head and everyone sat in silence waiting and watching.
After 30 seconds Mary said “They’re all gone!” And crowd cheered and clapped as Mozart and Mary took a bow!
And that is how Mozart became the Amazing Magic Hiccup Puller.
The end.

Detective Pikachu Movie- Family Review with A LOT of the Spoilers

If you want to see this movie DO NOT Read this right now, come back after. This is our conversations after we saw the movie on what we thought. Image result for detective pikachu free images
Me: I liked it. I didn’t get that the dad was actually Pikachu. When he came back to life, I was confused.  I was wrapped up in understanding that they took his mind and I missed the whole repairing the body. Even though they do explain it, I didn’t hear that. I did eventually get it. It was interesting though. And good. It kept me interested and I love Pikachu. The Pokémon were cute. I liked how they explained the different attacks for certain Pokemon. I do not play a lot of Pokémon and I never did. I see the cards because my son was into them but I don’t know the games well.  I do know some of the characters so that was fun to see them. Mew 2 was awesome. Related image
Husband: How did Pikachu get back to the town so fast? I liked it. It was a good movie. It was fun. I played the games. I like how they gave you 20+ years of history without taking forever. If you’re a fan, there is stuff for you. If you are not a fan, there is stuff for you too. It was well written. The ditto was nightmare material.
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Son: I loved it. My favorite part was the plot twist at the end. My question is how did Tim get down the stairs so fast? Overall I liked it. I would see it in theaters and at home cause there is there are snacks. My favorite Pokémon was the Tortoise, I liked when they popped up. I expected a big battle, But I liked the plot twist. Why did Pikachu almost die from a rock, that was a little much. Where’s the hypo spray, Tim? This is what happens when you go to battle with one Pokémon. Charzard was super wrinkly
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Daughter: fell asleep 3/4 of the way through! I liked it till i fell asleep. The Pikachu is cute. I wish I had a pet like that.
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Sister: I liked it. I liked the twist at the end that Pikachu was his father and that’s how they could communicate. I didn’t see that coming although looking back, I see that now.
Niece: it was good. I liked it.
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Over all we would recommend seeing the movie in the movie theaters and we will definitely be watching it again at home.
What are your thoughts?

Isabel’s bedtime story

Last week my daughter asked me to come up with a story for her when I was putting her to bed. I have no idea what was on my mind, but this came out…
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Once upon a time there was a teddy bear family. The daughters name was Alyssa and she had a sibling and two parents.
Alyssa loved to shop. She wanted all new clothes to go back to school but her mom said that she didn’t have a lot of money. One day Alyssa was on her moms iPad and she put a bunch of stuff in the shopping cart. She hit pay just to see what would happen and suddenly the screen changed and said thank you for your order. Alyssa had no idea that her mom had a credit card attached to the account.
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Over the next week bags and bags kept arriving at the door and Alyssa would sneak them in to her room. When school started she decided to just wear one new outfit. But the kids loved it so much that she decided to wear one more. And the next day one more. Her mother asked her where she got all these new clothes from and Alyssa said she borrowed them from friends.  Before Alyssa even knew it she had opened and worn all the new clothes she bought.
Two weeks later Alyssa came home and her mother told her that she just got the credit card bill and Alyssa was in more trouble then ever before.
Alyssa had to get a job to pay her mom back for all her clothes and she was grounded for two months!
Don’t steal, don’t lie and always use coupons. Good night.
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I really had no intention of the story ending up this way! I mean the characters are teddy bears.  She seemed to like the story though.

Weekend Plans

Hi Everyone! This week has gone really slow for me. Between work dragging and just feeling so drained and tired, it feels like time slowed down this week. I went to bed Monday and Tuesday by 8:00 pm. Wednesday and Thursday I managed to make it to almost 9:00. Needless to say, I am really happy that it’s Friday. Tonight I do the big grocery shopping after work. I hit Trader Joes, Costco, Shop Rite and then the wine store on the way home.
I am looking forward to this weekend.
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My nieces birthday is Monday so I will be taking her shopping Saturday. She’s going to be 14! Sunday is mothers day and we are going to a friends house for a BBQ. That’s it. I’m not big into celebrating mothers day so we usually don’t do much. We pretty much celebrate the same for Fathers Day too.
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What are you up to this weekend? Anyone have any special plans for Mothers Day?

High School Sweetheart? – Guest Post

Guest Post by:

Instagram: @conqueringall

Twitter: @brezzyisbaeeeee


High School Sweetheart?

Roses are red violets are blue, I think we were meant to be high school sweethearts but now you’re gone and I miss you.

Dear  Ja’Darius;

It’s been 2years since I’ve learned of your passing and honestly it effects me more today then it did when I first found out and I don’t know why. Maybe because I always thought that even if we lost contact god would bring us back together someday, you know like in those shity romance movies?? I’m so sorry I didn’t come to your funeral I didn’t know, no one had the decency to tell me smh. I found out through a girl we went to school with, she was telling me how a teacher had added her on Facebook, you know the one that literally laughed and sung about everything??….yeah her. Apparently you and her were friends until you passed away. At the time I wasn’t hurt or sad just shocked because yeah the school we attended at the time was combined with a hospital but you nor I were a sick patient we were sent there to recover from surgery and the last time I seen you. You were walking to school looking as healthy as the day you got discharged from the hospital. I have an idea well more like an assumption of what happened to you but refuse to ask what really happened. Some things are better left unknown. Sometimes I get mad at myself for not asking you out or wonder why didn’t you asked me but then other times I’m happy because I know we would’ve been together until your dying days and loosing you would be sooo much harder.

I guess what makes it so hard is not knowing if we were truly meant to be….

High School Sweethearts??

Instagram: @conqueringall

Twitter: @brezzyisbaeeeee

Standing on the edge

That’s what I have been feeling like lately. Like I am teetering on the edge of where I want to be. I am excited and terrified. I want so badly to realize this dream and yet, I am terrified.
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I’m having a hard time at work lately. They gave a promotion to this girl I work with to manager. Which I totally support because she really truly deserves it. My problem is that when I was proving to them that I didn’t need a supervisor and did the work for a year, they said that I couldn’t have a manager or supervisor title if I wasn’t a manager or supervisor of someone. Even though that was what I spent a year proving, that they didn’t need to hire a supervisor for me. So I pointed it out to my boss. I said, “I thought that in order to be a supervisor or manager you had to supervise or manage someone.” And then that fucker turned around and asked HR. HR’s response was my job functions are different than this other girls and I don’t qualify for that title. Then my boss called me into his office to talk about it. I pointed out that everything I did was what the supervisor position that they posted had listed for the job functions. He said that there is no one to supervise so I don’t do everything.
He went on to say that he can give me a manager title but I have to do more work and there is no money attached to it. When I brought up the work that I have been doing that was not listed in my job description, he said “okay, what else can you do?” To me that’s a huge slap in the face. I just feel really unappreciated in my job. But it pays alright and it’s close to the kids and the time off is good. I am just done trying to do anything else. I am  going to do my job and go home and work on my books.
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I will focus on books and writing and keep pushing though. Life is too short to stop. I have already stopped a few times with this dream and this time feels different.
This week has felt funny too. I mean I usually have so much to say about whatever. If you read my blog, you will see that’s true. This week has felt off. I was honestly considering taking a week off.
Yesterday I posted an excerpt from my book Moving Forward, (which I highly recommend you check out) and someone bought it! I am so happy. Maybe that’s why I am feeling so positive today.
Please consider buying an e book or the paperback. If you get the paperback now before I resize it, you could have a collectors item in your hands, I hope.
Paperback:  https://www.amazon.com/dp/1096851474 For $8.99
I promise to stop pushing this book so much. It’s just new and I feel like there are some really great stories in it. It’s worth the purchase and read.
I also signed up for Ko-Fi. https://ko-fi.com/sambel08
If you would like to help support me. I plan on upgrading this site to a business plan and then hopefully monetizing a little more.
I am still working a full time job and I will continue to until I can replace my income on the side. We need at least what I make now. I also have a husband, 2 kids and now 3 dogs. I am trying to just get a good schedule down. I’ll get there.
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But this feeling. Like something great is about to happen. I just feel really hopeful right now. It feels positive and I will keep moving forward.

Excerpt from Moving Forward – Chapter 3 Carmine

Unedited version:
I like to think of myself as totally independent. I have an apartment that I can’t afford, I work 3 jobs and stay up all night partying with my friends.  I take one course at a time at the community college because I have to pay for it out of pocket. My car is almost paid off. You know, I’m starting off.
Today I am going to treat myself to a little window shopping on Greenwich Avenue. It’s my first day off in like 3 months and I really want some new jeans. Plus I am invited to a wedding next month and I have nothing to wear.
Greenwich avenue is kind of crazy. Back in the day when I was young there were stores that I could at least somewhat afford.. Like Woolworth with a photo booth in the back, and a paper store that sold cool pens. We especially liked the fat permanent Sharpies so we could tag up the benches at the park. They also had a Gap and Banana Republic that had some pretty nice things on the sales racks.
That’s where I was heading today. After shopping I decided to swing by the Starbucks for a treat. Iced venti skim latte with caramel drizzle. I place my order and stand by the straws waiting for my drink.
“Jess, is that you?”
I look up and there is Carmine from high school. We were acquaintances. We knew the same people but never really talked much, except if there was no one besides us out at the smoking spot, then we would make small talk. We haven’t seen each other since graduation.
“Hey, Carmine! How are you? How’ve you been?”
“Good, you know, working. I’m about to take a break want to hang at the park for a bit and have a smoke”
“Sure, I’ll meet you over there.”
He hands me my coffee and I leave. for some reason my stomach has a little flutter in it. I head past the post office and the board of ed building and sit on the steps. After about 5 minutes I start to wonder if I walked to far and he won’t find me. Maybe I’m being stupid. Whatever, time to call some people and see what’s up for tonight. Then I feel a tap on my shoulder.
“Hey Jess! How’ve you been? what have you been up to?”
“Good, just work, a class or two at NCC and hanging out. I moved up to Norwalk. How about you?”
“Just working and I’m trying to write this book.”
“Really? That’s cool! I’ve been submitting poetry but I have nothing published yet. I’d love to read your book!”
“Sure! I have to get back to work but what’s your number and I’ll give you a call when I get out.”
So we exchange numbers and say the good byes, nice to see you, talk to you later.
Later that night I am hanging out with my friends and my phone rings. It’s Carmine and he wants to meet up. I tell him what parking lot we are currently hanging out at and he says he’s on his way.
We spoke for the whole night and somehow he ends up back at my place where I have decided that I am not going to smoke anywhere else but the bathroom even though I have no furniture. So we sit in the bathroom for hours laughing at each other and chain smoking. We are the perfect amount of mean to each other. Mean and flirty. He leaves at 4AM which gives me about 3 hours of sleep before my double the next day.
I wake up exhausted but happy and I wonder if I will hear from Carmine later. My day is long and exhausting. A double shift  at pizza hut. Half waiting and half shift managing but on my feet the entire day. Just about close time Carmine shows up. So I close the restaurant and we help our selves to a couple beers and make some pizza. We sit and talk and decide to head back to my place. This time he sleeps over, we end up making out till early and I finally pass out from sheer exhaustion.
I wake up to Carmine getting his things together and leaving for work. Then I roll over and tell him to lock the bottom lock on the way out and go back to sleep for a few more hours till my shift at the radio station.
A couple weeks go by and Carmine and I start spending a lot of time together. Someone asks if we are boyfriend and girlfriend and I say no and he says yes.
 He brings me his manuscript and I read it. I am impressed. He has an entire book written. He’s just in the process of sending it out. One night our making out turns into something else. We start to get into it but something is wrong. Like we can’t feel each other. It’s just off. the next morning he gets his things but something has changed for both of us.
He meets me at Pizza hut later that night and I take a break to go smoke with him. He says “Why are you so loose?” I am honestly so offended I tell him to Fuck off and goodbye.. So he leaves.
A week passes and he comes back and asks me if I am still mad at him. I say, yeah! that was really rude. He says ok, I’ll be back next week.
Two days later on the front page of the newspaper there is a picture of Carmine. Apparently he mixed some medication and his mother found him dead in his bed. They explain it as a reaction between medications.
I don’t go to his funeral. I mean we really only hung out for about a month, I never met any of his family, we didn’t share any mutual friends.  And I was still so offended by his comment.  It really made me feel awful about myself and I just still wasn’t over it. A couple months pass and I have a dream that he is in a cemetery in the Bronx. I feel like I should go say I am sorry for not going to the funeral. I have no idea where he is buried, or if he was even buried but I go to the cemetery in the Bronx from my dream and walk around for a few hours. Of course I don’t find him. I end up driving home and talking to him to try to make some kind of peace. I’m sorry you were such and asshole I say. And then we laugh in my mind and forgive each other.
A few Years later I bump into his twin brother Joe at NCC and I just walk faster. Years go by after that and I hear that Joe has killed himself. He did leave a self published book behind. I buy it and gobble up the contents hoping to learn something. The only thing I learn is that they couldn’t stand each other and that Carmine had in fact killed himself and they both had tried before. They both had been depressed for as long as Joe could remember.
There is no closure to this story really.
Please buy my book Moving Forward for more stories:
Moving Forward by [Acosta, J.]
The paperback is huge. I will have to reformat it to make it smaller.

The Boogie Man

The other night I was sitting with my 7 year old daughter making friendship bracelets.Related image
My daughter was telling me at school how they tell each other scary stories and she said “Mama, what’s the boogie man?
And I said “Oh, baby… The boogie man isn’t a real thing.”
She said “I know but like what is he?”
And I said “okay, so picture the thing you’re most scared of, and then it’s in your closet or under you bed.  That’s the boogie man. Your biggest fear pretty much. Or that’s what I imagined it was when I was growing up”
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Then she got a little quiet. And I thought. Wow, I just parent failed so hard. How do I fix this? So I tried to back track.  I tried to get her to talk about what she was thinking about and she just said “can I sleep with you tonight?”
And I was like I’m mother fucking mom of the year for this one. Total failure. And I should have seen this a mile away.
Today I found out she pictured momo. Or whatever that creepy thing that’s been going around the internet and I understood why she got quiet and scared… I talked to her more about it and she understands that the Boogie man is not a real thing. What would your answer be to a 7 year old?
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Happy Friday! I love me some Friday’s. And I love weekends that are unplanned and that is exactly what I have coming up this weekend. There is some house cleaning and some yard clean up, as long as it’s nice out. Besides that, nothing.
I love when we get these rare, completely unscheduled, at home weekends. We haven’t visited my In Laws in a while. Maybe we will take a trip down to see them if we want to get out of the house.
What are you all up to this weekend?

The Avengers Family Movie Review – With one hundred million spoilers.

Do Not Read this if you don’t want to know what goes on in the Avengers movie!!!
This a family review and spoilers are part of the reviews.
Come back after you have seen it and let me know what you think!
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Usually we go to the movies on a Tuesday night but this movie was already sold out when we tired to buy tickets last week. We got our tickets for Wednesday night and tried not to read any spoilers before going to see it. I totally read a few spoilers. I mean between this movie and Game of Thrones, which I have never watched, I would have to keep my head under a rock not to read or see anything. The kids had also heard a few things from friends at school. So we knew a few things going in. I also know a lot about Game of Thrones now too.
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Here we go:
My Review: I liked it. I thought it was well executed. I thought it took a little long to get them all back together. But I understand why cause they had to explain stuff. Some parts I didn’t get, but I liked the way it worked together. It made me think about the past movies and what I missed. But how did Captain Marvel know to find Iron Man in space? Like she didn’t know that fury was dead till she got back to earth so what did the page do?
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Husband Review: It was okay. It was really long. I loved that they started with Hawk eye. I love that the marvel started with Iron man and it ended with Iron man. For being 3 hours it didn’t feel like it dragged on but there were a lot of pieces to that movie and they had to fit a lot of stuff in. So for a while they forgot about Captain Marvel. But they did a really good job tying it up and bringing Thanos back into the conflict. I wanted to see more Hawk eye. Tony was excellent in the movie. A lot of people got closure. He got to meet his dad. I like that they were like fuck it, you have to deal with it.  It’s 5 years forward, you have to deal with Trauma of loss and they brought people back after the fact and they didn’t reset like back to the way it was before.
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Son Review: it was really good movie and I liked when 50% of the population came back.
Daughter Review: Isabel feel asleep half way through.
Niece Review: it was good. I would watch it again.
Sister Review: I liked that black panther came back and then everyone else did. I didn’t think they would come back. I hated that iron man died. I knew he was going to because that’s what Dr strange was talking about. But to see it was something. I didn’t know about Hawk Eye to much. I didn’t get that story. I like how they flashed backed and tied it to the movie. I recalled stuff and it showed a different version of the  story then what we saw the first time. I would watch it again.
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Overall, everyone would recommend seeing this movie. We don’t know if you absolutely have to watch this in theaters. I do think it’s a good movie and would recommend it. I think it stands by itself, I don’t think you need to have seen the other movies in order to see this.
Did you see it already? What did you think?