Have you ever took the time to sit down and think?? And I’m not talking about thinking about all the things you have to get done tomorrow. I’m talking about your future, specifically the house you want?? Where it would be? How would it look? How many bedrooms and bathrooms and most importantly how would you decorate?? I sure have!! I’ve never been The materialistic type of girl I am literally content with everything the Lord has given me including the house I live in now. However… That doesn’t mean a girl can’t dream right?? With that being said here it is
Location: This is something I still have to figure out. I’ve always said I wanted to live in California, I’ve never been but for some reason I think it’s so beautiful. However I may have to reconsider this for two reasons. 1. Physical therapy isn’t available there. I’m not sure how true this is but a few years ago when I was still in school there was a show called Push girls about four women in wheelchairs. I went to school telling a teacher about it and she posted a message on their Facebook page, surprisingly a day or two later the father of one of the cast members reached out which led to her doing a Q&A with the whole school. I can’t remember the exact question I asked but it had something to do with physical therapy. She explained how getting therapy was a little difficult for her because it’s not available there. Being wheelchair-bound this is something pretty important..Well at least for me. 2. The weather. I’m always hearing stories about wildfires and earthquakes. Not to think negative but it wouldn’t be easy for me to stop drop and roll if something were to happen.
I really like the layout of these living rooms they all make me feel like grabbing a cup of hot chocolate and snacks and cuddling up with husband on the couch watching Grey’s Anatomy well the kids are asleep. I’d probably get black or gray Couch’s instead of white because I have O.C.D. And kids are messy. It’ll drive me crazy seeing Orange cheese puffs hand Prints or juice stains on My white couch!
Bedrooms: I’d like about 8 bedrooms!! Yes 8.
My Room… Can you tell I love purple?? My poor husband will probably get annoyed with purple and blue “ sorry in advance bae! Seriously” A room for each of our children, something tells me he’ll want 5 or more. A guest room and not 1 but 2 offices. Other couples may share their office but I want my own.
Kitchen: This isn’t really my ideal kitchen but I chose it for the color. Yes I want a kitchen with Black cabinets and counters because again kids are messy.
Bathrooms I say we’ll need at least 3 of them. One in our room, the kids can share and one for the guest.
Pool: Last but but not least a pool for those hot summer days!!
Well that’s it for dream house that’ll most like stay just that….A dream lol. Do you have a dream house??
If you follow me on Instagram you may or may not know that I am in a wheelchair due to a hospital mistake, that’s a story for another time though. Because of this I’ve struggled with a shit load of insecurities because of the mean and hurtful things I was told growing up. Not anymore though 2020 is my year!! With that being said I’ve decided to start working out. This isn’t new to me when I was 12 I had a six pack but I was insecure because I am a girl. Stupid reason to be insecure right?? I know… Back then the whole gender stereotype was a thing. Comments like ” you’re a girl girls aren’t supposed to have muscles.” I’m a grown man and I don’t even have abs.” Were constantly said. It made me feel like it was wrong for a girl to be in shape. I didn’t intentionally let myself go but I have surgery and was is stuck in the bed for six weeks with a cast. My only priority then was recovering not my body prior. However now 25 years old I really miss how in shape I was. Over the years I found myself even slipping back into depression because of it.
I’m taking my life back!! It’s been a month since I’ve embarked on this workout journey and if I am honest it’s harder than I thought!! My goal is to have my six pack back but I can’t even do push-ups at the moment. So for now I’m just doing some dumbbell exercises at home that are modified just a Little because of my disability.
Here are some of the exercises I do… disabled young old man or a woman you can do anything you put your mind to!!!
Dear white people (NOT ALL)
I love you, why are you scared of me?? I bleed red just like you. I cry just like you. Why are you scared of me? In case you haven’t figured it out yet yes I’m black. A black woman who genuinely wants to know why are you scared of me?…why are you scared of us black daughters, sons, mothers, fathers, sisters, brothers, aunties, uncles, cousins, grandma, grandpas and even Hispanics/latinos and Latinas? What about us instills fear in your heart the second you encounter one of us to the point that you have to pull out a gun and not just shoot but kill? why can’t you see us as humans just like you?
I’m saddened by the fact that I even felt the need to write this but I’m tired and if I’m honest starting to get a little scared to go out because anything I do can be seen as a threat even something as simple as making sure I’m sitting up straight in my wheelchair!! However I do know that this is not only a racist issue but a spiritual one as well the devil wants us divided but we must come together especially as the body of Christ and tell him to F off!! Dear White people I know not all of you are infected with the racist bug in fact I’m honored to know some of you but I’m asking that you use your voices and who knows maybe one conversation with you will change millions of hearts🙏🏽
A black daughter