Hey everyone! I just thought I would check in on where I am at personally right now. The beginning of the year was a little rough for me but I finally got in to see a Psychiatrist in April (after a 4 month wait!) and we started a medication for depression. We also added a high dose of Vitamin D because I was deficient, and fish oil. I have been on it for a month and I honestly feel so much better.
I don’t know if this makes sense or not but I feel good different. Like I have more energy, getting out of bed in the morning isn’t as hard as it use to be. I have no idea if this is related at all but a few days ago a song came on the radio. This was one of my favorite songs when I was in my early twenties and for some reason I couldn’t listen to it anymore because it always made me think about all the stupid shit I did at that time. Not the good times, the shit times. I would turn it down because I would feel embarrassed by 20 year old me. Anyway, the other day one of those songs came on and I turned it up and sang it and just enjoyed the song like I did back then. I am not sure if this has anything to do with anything. It was just the first time in a long time I was able to just brush the things I can not change aside and not dwell on something stupid I did or said or how I acted 17 years ago. I mean that was almost half my life ago and I have come a long way since then. You know? Plus, there were way more good times than bad times so I thought of those.
I have also started to work out in the morning again… Just this past week, and I like it. We have machines in our family room, a rower and an elliptical. My husband and I go down in the morning and rotate who’s on which one each day and do 15 minutes. I downloaded an app on my phone for a 7 minute workout and I started doing that at 7 PM cause that’s when I am usually done with feeding the kids and whatever other chores I have after work. So far I am enjoying that too because it’s really only 7 minutes. You do 12 different exercise moves for 30 seconds each and rest for 10 seconds in between. It goes so fast it’s like, that’s it? But you know what? It’s something and I’ll keep doing it. I am going to try to start walking a mile during the day at work too but that’s not always possible. I would like to lose 30 pounds by September, that’s my goal. I am at 186 this morning, which is what I weighed when I was 9 months pregnant with my daughter 8 years ago… So wish me luck and I will keep that posted on here too.
Since we started the working out this week I have also started to monitor my food and portions again using another app called Lose it. I know everything I need to do to lose weight and I am motivated again to do it. I use the free version of both apps. Also, my cholesterol is high and I don’t want to start medication so I actually need to lose weight now. It’s my fault though. I knew that I was getting a little excessive a little to often with stuff so I guess this was my body checking me back into reality. That is where I am at right now. I’ll do a monthly post on my progress (hopefully) as what’s working and what’s not.
This past weekend I had a town party to go to Saturday. Sunday was book club and we had a BBQ at one of the girls houses. Monday was memorial day and my other friend had a BBQ at her house. Summer activities are starting. I did eat whatever I wanted at these and tried to stay as healthy as possible. So it’s back to watching my intake now. I am trying the intermittent fasting. I usually have breakfast and lunch and try to make good choices and then don’t eat at night. I think that’s where I am getting into trouble with eating dinner and then snacking and going to bed. So we’ll see how this works.
There is 2 1/2 weeks of school left and then it’s my son’s 10th birthday! We planned a vacation to California for a week. I can not wait. It’s supposed to be a surprise but I think he knows that we are going away but I don’t think he knows we are going to stay at Lego land for 2 days and then stay in San Diego for 5 days and go to Universal, the zoo and then just explore. I am just super excited. I can’t wait to surprise him.
Update on the the Teacher bully: My son was finally moved to a new classroom last week after his teacher wouldn’t let him go to the bathroom and he peed his pants in class. A 9 year old boy. I am still furious about this situation. If they had just changed his class back in JANUARY, when I asked, his 2nd half of school year would have been completely different. I wrote a blog about if teachers can be bullies, and guess what? They can. The change in his attitude in the morning is amazing. He actually wants to go to school now and he is back to enjoying math and doing that unprompted, on his own. The entire teacher bully and dealing with the school makes me feel terrible. I wish I didn’t let them try to work it out and keep him in that environment for so long. I am furious with the entire situation and if this ever happens again, I now know to push for a class change. I need to calm down before I go back and talk to them so I don’t say things I will regret. I plan on having this meeting before the end of this school year so we can discuss next year because I am not going through this shit again with them.
That’s pretty much where I am at right now. What are your plans and goals for the summer?