I started this year pissed off. I can’t figure out why. I don’t know why I am being so touchy about everything. It’s just like I want to do things and I have an idea about what I want to happen and then it doesn’t work out or it’s the complete opposite of what I was thinking and I start again.
I can’t tell if it’s me overreacting yet or if it’s me really feeling pissed off and frustrated. Probably both, but it did get me thinking about this year and what I would like to do with my blog. I read all these sites like make some money here and in 6 months you can make this amount and in a year you can replace your day job and it’s been a year and I have written 100 or more blogs and 3 books and made a grand total of $20.00. And I still have no idea how to do anything to improve my blog stats or get book sales.
It is picking up a little and I will keep writing because I love it. I just feel like there is so much to learn and I don’t have a lot of extra time. I work full time, I have 2 kids and a husband, and 3 dogs. I am planning on writing at least 2 more books this year in my LMBW series. I’m going to keep up with the blog but I still have no idea what or where to promote to get more views.
My boss’s boss took us to a holiday lunch a couple weeks ago and they were talking about this woman that’s covering for a lady on maternity leave in our department and they were like “She has a website, isn’t that amazing? I mean does anyone else here have a website?” And I was like “Well yeah, I have a blog.” And they said “What is it about?” and I said “It’s kind of like a family blog, reviews of things we do together or things I am up to.” And the CTO says “Who would want to read that?” And laughed at me. I was just like “I don’t know, maybe the 500 people that subscribe to it.” And then it was over. But still. How fucking rude.
This sent me into a kind of tug of war in my head though. Like wouldn’t it be easier if I wrote about things that people are really interested in? That would be much easier to promote. Cause really, who does care about me? I’m not that interesting at all.
Also, I currently feel really unappreciated at my job. But the good evens the bad for me right now. I was really hoping that the books could take off and I would be able to write full time for a while. I would absolutely love that. I’ll just keep writing. I am just in a bit of a funk right now and I know it will work out eventually. But ugh, it’s shitty feeling shitty.
I guess this feeling is just frustration trying to figure out where to go next and what to do.
So I am starting a new promotion on my first book in the series. It is currently FREE until 3/30/2019 on Kindle unlimited. If you could please check it out it and leave a review, it would really mean a lot to me.
What’s next? I will start my next book. And I will keep writing on my blog and promoting as much as possible.