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Going back for my Bachelor’s Degree- Finally.

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I have finally gotten back into school. I am determined to finish it this time. Last time there was so much going on- Job hopping and trying to find something I liked- and I am now settled somewhere I hope to be at for a long while.

 I enrolled at University of Bridgeport and they accepted 63 of my transfer credits. I picked Bridgeport because they have an online program and I need all online because I have  a full time day job. I also have a friend who graduated from there and she was the one who suggested I investigate their programs. I started one class this semester, Biology, to try to ease back into it. I am loving it.  

Last week I met with my advisor to go over classes for fall and she helped me pick 5 classes to think about. I also changed my major to General Studies- Business Administration. She said I needed to pick a discipline and since I tend to take more business and finance classes, I picked business.

She also helped me change my major because it costs less to be only online then it does to go in person. I am paying out of pocket and any savings is helpful. I also applied for a couple scholarships that I hope to get because college is expensive. I am so happy. I am planning on taking 3 classes for the Fall. Labor Law and arbitration, Supervision and Team building and History of Jazz.

I figure if I can take 9 credits per semester and maybe a class or two during the summer, I will graduate in 3 years or less. My husband is also currently going back to school to finish, and our son is looking at colleges that he wants to apply to next year. Soon we will all be college students. My daughter is 3 years away and she already has a few ideas of where she wants to go.

Wish me luck please cause things pop up all the time and this time I really want to finish and maybe even continue for my masters. Wouldn’t that be awesome?

1.6.25 Personal Update.

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New Year and I need to get back to myself. It took a long while for me to feel like writing again. To be honest, I still don’t have the desire, but I miss it sometimes. I still write every day but more just for me to figure out my feelings and emotions.

The last time I published anything on here was in November of 2022- A lot has happened since then. I got a new job that sucked. They told me all these things when I was hired and then when I started it was a different story. I stayed at the first one for 3 months and then found another job closer to home with better time off and more pay. That job was fine for about 7 months. Then one of the managers had a temper tantrum and ran around talking bad about me. The other manager agreed with me but wouldn’t stand up for me. So, I found another job.

I have been at this place for over a year now and I am honestly happy. I like the people, I like the place, I like all the benefits. I feel like I want to be here for a while.

I had to stop school for a bit because all the job searching was getting to me. I am a fast learner but learning 3 new billing systems and all the other systems that these places used was a lot. On top of home and kids and everything. So now that I am settled more at work, I am going to look back into finishing my BA. I will eventually.

It’s been over a year since I lost one of my closest  friends when she decided to divorce her husband and I guess my family too. She said I gas light her when I was upset because she was excluding me from all these things I would have loved to go to too. That statement from her completely fucked me up for a long time. First I had to google what gas lighting meant and I was wondering if I did and then how and then what could I have done differently. What I have finally come to realize is it was her changing and it wasn’t me. She didn’t want to be my friend anymore and instead of talking to me about it she just stopped talking to me at all. She told me my family was a buffer for her with her family. I didn’t want to believe it but it probably was the truth. She didn’t really care about me or my family. That was really hard for me to understand. I still think about it and it still hurts.

Then I started analyzing all my other friendships. It had me second guessing everything I was feeling. I just never thought I could be so disposable. I thought we were really going to retire and be neighbors on a lake somewhere. Just like we talked about on all the family vacations we took over the years. We were friends for 30 years. I never doubted we would be friends forever.

The good thing is that I am feeling better now. I have reconnected with old friends and made some new ones. I also realized where I stand with some other people who I thought I was important to but realized they didn’t value me. I’ve re evaluated where I am spending my time and with who. I’ll be fine but that was a hard lesson.

This year I am turning inward still. I need to find what makes me happy again and reconnect to life. I feel a little detached and I know it was me building the walls up. I have made some appointments for therapy. The new job has given me amazing benefits and I was able to go back to the doctors and get all my pains checks. I still need to lose weight but everything else seems ok.

My plans for this year are to work on me and go back to school. I want to write a few times a month for the blog. What are your plans for 2025?