Whelp, It’s almost here. I am officially turning 40 in a week. I wasn’t going to do anything. Honestly. Just get seafood with my family and a napoleon pastry from my favorite place.  My friends have all done something so they said we needed to do at least something for me. One friend rented a house in the Catskills for a weekend. That was a blast. We danced and drank and did a fire pit and a hot tub. Another friend did an overnight spa trip. That was a lot of fun too! I was so relaxed, it was wonderful! 

Usually my family and I take a long weekend and go up to Cape Cod. I love it at this time of year. The tourist season is almost over so the beaches and restaurants are not packed. We cancelled it last year because of Covid and then again this year because we have a long trip planned in December. My daughter is turning 10 and wanted to go to Hawaii… Honestly, I do too.. so we’ll be there for 10 days in December. Anyway, between Hawaii and Covid and School, we’re not going to the Cape this year. Instead I have picked a vineyard that a friend said was really pretty. We’re going to go Saturday and we are bringing food and buying wine there. It’ll be a day trip, outside, and I hope a lot of fun. 

One of my friends couldn’t make it so we are meeting for pizza and beers Wednesday. Then Sunday my family and sister and niece are going to try to go get seafood at this cute place on the sound. My actual birthday falls during the week next week and I think that’s when I’ll get my napoleon. 

I don’t know if it’s because I am older, because of the past year and a half, or a combo of both, but I am noticing that I am leaning more towards comfort in my clothing choices. I am loving sweaters with pockets lately. I just got this one and I am obsessed with it right now. Not enough to spend $275.00 on it, but I will be wearing it until it’s time to return it. 

I’m currently still doing Rent the Runway but I don’t like their new memberships. I am mad I am paying pretty close to what I was before and I am getting less than half of what I use to get. I used to have unlimited shipments. That was great because I could try new things, things I normally wouldn’t wear, and sometimes I discovered that I loved it… Sometimes it went right back. I am on the look out for a new clothes rental place that isn’t so pricy. My friend uses stitch fix, and she loves it… I am tempted to try but I kind of like the rental part. I don’t necessarily want to buy everything I get. I want to get new things, wear them a few times, and then send them back. I don’t know, we’ll see what happens. For now I still have rent the runway, I just don’t love it as much as I used to and it’s because of the new membership programs they forced everyone to change to.  

In other news… I have been following entertainment news lately to sort of give my brain a break from the news news. Can I just say how happy I am for J Lo and Ben, Britney and Sam, and Kourtney and Travis. I know I don’t know them. I just love seeing pictures of them smiling and it’s like that pure joy smile. It’s so cute. And it has been making me feel really happy to see people really happy. I really hope that everyone gets to feel that sort of joy. 

That’s pretty much it for me right now. The kids are settling back into the school routine. As are my husband and I.  He’s back in the office 3 days a week and I’m in1 for now. I am sure we’re going to have to start going back in more. Right now they seem to not be pressuring everyone too much yet. I’ll take it. When I went in last week, I was so nervous and there were only a couple other people there. I guess I have to just keep going and hopefully I will not be so anxious after a while. 

How are you all doing? Any plans coming up?

I’m not ready. For anything. I have myself good and scared of everyone. I’m anxious and I trust no one. Haha. I don’t want the kids in after’s, I don’t want to go back to the office and I don’t trust anyone in either of those places to wear masks or respect my space. 

In reality, I have to start going back into the office. I have to have the kids in school. I have to put myself in very uncomfortable situations, I guess. What else can I do? I can’t afford not to work and I learned by doing remote school last year that I am a terrible teacher. 

I hope that my job is as flexible as they say they will be. I am supposed to start going back to the office next week for a few days a week. I am still figure out what days to go in and what days to work from home and then I have to figure out if the kids need to go to after’s. I just don’t know. I am completely uncomfortable with everything because I know a co worker who doesn’t wear a mask at her desk and my desk is maybe 3 feet away. I don’t want to be in the office with her. 

This shit is still spreading and killing people and mutating. And then people are making it all political. It’s not political that I don’t want my family or myself to get sick. I don’t get it. Honestly, this post isn’t really about that anyway. I am nervous about sending my family out into the world when people are fighting over the stupidest shit. Like if it’s your right to not wear a mask in public then it should be my right that you stay very far the fuck away from me. Unless you really want me to say something to you because I will tell you to back up. 

I’m just annoyed at everyone right now. Even going to the grocery store is stressful. People don’t pay attention. Even though masks are mandated right now, no store employee wants to tell the old mask less man hovering over people to put a mask on.  Seriously, why are you so close? Why can’t you wait your turn? One thing I have definitely learned during this whole thing is that people really just don’t care about other people. I’ll stand and wait my turn and then someone will come up behind me and reach around me and grab something. What about my personal space?  I don’t know what to do about it really besides be annoyed and complain about it and then try to get over it. 

For September I am hoping to get back into the swing of things without getting to anxious about everything. I don’t know how it’s going to work. I talked to my bosses. I was assured that everything is flexible right now. I am really concerned about schools and quarantines and what’s going to happen then. But then I am also trying not to worry too much about it and telling myself to go with the flow because that’s really all I can do right now. 
For my blog, I am hoping to start writing again at least once a week. I need that outlet right now, I think. 

What about you all? How are you doing?